Carrots littel Blog Of ntn

Time (2007)

hmm its been awhile now i updated my blog .I just realize that usually when i update my blog is when i am have an exam haiz cant  help it don't know why also . hmm have ntn much to say actually just felt like writing . everything is comin to an end soon like in two months time a new life will be for me again , new people , new things and new place its sad to leave behind the times in college but the saddest part is to leave behind love ones  and friends who really been always there for me trough this freankin  course  where  time is a constrain and stress is a like so much but yet i still enjoy every bit of it .with enjoyment and pain comes improvements and failures kakkaka . this season or this year i have stop a habit that i am started long ago thought it was impossible to stop it but not bad a good improvement i have made with a special some one who help me through it because that some one don't want me to die young or get cancer if not that person will laugh at me at my death bed i really appreciate what that person did and i thank you and u archive it . learn a lot of stuff too in college how to disturb people ,annoy people and make them go crazy till they shout , kick and slap me kakak and yes bruises is also part of the package in college life (FOC) not written in the Boucher's . On the other hand , i fell for a person  she shall not be named kakakka but i dono she is gona read this anot but ur "lame" and she has been always there from me through really think and really thin kakkaak she has been my moral support and my most important thing in my life without her i don't know i can survive kakaka but yet again ur lame and u mean a lot to me . new friends old friends all have been there for me such as ( Dahlai lama  aka  IvAn , Bear Aka Ben , Chessy Aka Kai Chuan  DOg aka Ewe Ewe and sebagainya yang sepatutnya di sini  )(roommate aka KK ,Tratsy aka SueTs , Pat aka PAtrick , AbanG Z aka (-Z-) , Meow Meow aka Su Qing ,  My Peace Treaty Gurl aka jolyn and much much more ) they have been there for me when i bored and have ntn to do or have too much things to do and bla bla bla . the onli thing i regret this year is just that i have not enuff time to spend with each and everyone of u kakakka time is so short this year so i hope u all the best and get what u all wish to get , gud luck !!!. finally SHe Muakz kakkaka i know i am disgusting  but  i dont care kakka  ur lame gud nite bye bye everyone .

crossroads of pain

hmm schooling day and i am still online haiz and its now 1130 pm i am doing ntn actualy kakka starin at the pc screen and my eyes is red as an apple haiz . 49 days left untill spm arrive and yet i still sitting down and doin ntn about it haiz. actualy i am stuck in a crossroad between form 6 ,college or matriculation which one i shud go ? hmm and i am in a very complicated situation rite now every thing seems to be wrong , can this problems all go away untill i finish my spm or shud i shut my self out in the cold were onli ice and winter as my answer could it be the answer i long for or could it be a mistake of my life that could ruin me into bits and pieces.I did badly in my trails and i dono how to actualy face it but tryin too slowly realy cant get it out my mind and i know time is runnin out for me to get what i aim for this 2 years the progress was ok untill this year haiz what a year for me a realy realy realy realy big big rollercoster ride for me .....if i dont stop writin now my eyes is gona pop out kakka and the eye lids like a computer shut down it self when it got hit by a virus or something . so may god have mercy on my soul thru this holy month kakka haiz . :)

WhY?

finaly last day of the spm trails cuk cuk very tired already .my brains are tellin me to rest but my heart is tellin to go on hmm what shud i do 6 more weeks to go and yet my resualt i guess is not to the standert i wan it to be haiz.Is there such thing that there is no if ,buts and why when we are in a serouis conversation or an order from some one to get the job done ?. Why ? what is the defenition why ? . haiz . izzit irritating to ask someone why ?. today is all about why , but and if .

memories

memories still haunt me why is this happening ? hmm could u ever feel the light is fading away in the end of the tunnel ? . alot of things had happend so fast this year all the sad and happy momments will be with me forever . cant belive after eleven years of school i still survive kakaka a miricale . when i was small i used to count the days the month and the years to reach the day that i wana stop schooling and it is so close already another few more days to go and that would be the end . my frens , my life in school all will be in my heart and i would miss u all. the things we did and done all will be a still image in my brain like a picture that neve fades.one day i might see u all with wife , husband and kids what would i be kakkaka no one can tell. we learn every thing from math ,science and may be some kaka stupid stuff but yet again we enjoyed it . the school walls and,bell rings and basketball court is juz memories that leave on one day i would turn back and say UNA MANTE and i will think of my past that is so so so no words to describe.

FriSt

yoyo this is my frist blog hmm i have ntn to say much in my frist blog but erm lets talk about my life  started everything in small small kindi then sk batu lanchang and now GSS haiz stupid school kakkaa what to do thats life school are always a place where people hate the most i guess but not everyone hates it. so long i have been in this world i learn somthing u know what izzit life is not a box of chocolates kakakak that all i can say sadness is always there to ruin everything hmm like that crocodile hunter guy u see haiz .btw everyone who is takin spm or pmr i wish u all gud luck and do ur best ! ok hmm i would end my frist post here hopefully i would repost tomorrow ok bye .